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Astro Guide 2012: Gemini - The Frisky

I read the predictions from the past couple of years, and they were all right on ... it's a bit bizarre reading them after the fact and seeing that these things came true. This makes me excited for what this new year has to come! I'm graduating nursing school and will finally begin my life!

Astro Guide 2012: Gemini - The Frisky:

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How have you made someone feel?

"I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
Maya Angelou

My little hero!

Who needs a man when I have Baxter around to kill spiders?

She is by Ben Rector

One day someone will sing this about me ....
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She hails from Boston
She hates the sound that goodbyes make
She loves Sunday's and champagne
She can't stand the winter, she can't stand anything that she can't change
She can't change

She is whatever she wants to be
She is a little of everything
Mixed up so tough in a beautiful way
She's got the world at her fingertips
She makes beauty look effortless
And I want everything she is
She is
She is
Well I want everything she is

We can talk for hours
But she wrote the book on hard to get
No it don't matter what I say
I could buy her flowers
But that's just too cliché to impress a girl like her
But y'know I kinda like it that way


She is whatever she wants to be
She is a little of everything
Mixed up so tough in a beautiful way
She's got the world at her fingertips
She makes beauty look effortless
And I want everything she is
She is
She is
Well I want everything she is



All I think about
And I can't do without
The good, the bad, the somewhere in-between
Oh because I want everything she is

Whatever she wants to be
She's a little of everything
Mixed up so tough
In a beautiful way


She is whatever she wants to be
She is a little of everything
Mixed up so tough in a beautiful way
She's got the world at her fingertips
She makes beauty look effortless
And I want everything she is
She is
She is
Well I want everything she is

Life is good

I feel so blessed to have the life that I have. There are so many ups and downs but I don't think that I would have it any other way. The bad times makes me appreciate the good times that much more. There are people that have come  in and out of my life and each one have taught me a new lesson. AND for whatever reason I haven't kept them in my life but I will forever hold them in my heart because of all that they have taught me. So for that I'm grateful to have had those experiences. Through each adversity that I've conquered, I know I am worth it and that I am strong enough to make it through anything.

The house feels soooo empty!

The little boo is staying at Grandma's this week because I've been working 12 hours days back to back.  The house feels so incredibly empty without. He's so stinking cute! I love having him around. He gives me so much joy.  I can't wait to have him back. One more night of work. A lot of studying tomorrow. Maybe a date? Then the boo comes back on Monday. We're both so lucky to have my aunt in our lives. She loves him so much as does my uncle. I know he's in good hands with them :o)

On another note, I met someone last night at work who makes my knees weak! I felt like a little girl while talking to him. I was nervous and shaky. It was a nice feeling. I hope to work with him again. It would be nice. On that note ... I should probably start getting ready. Last 12 hour night for the week!

10 Things You Should Never Say To An Emotional Woman - The Frisky

Guys should memorize this list! It would make life so much easier for everyone!

10 Things You Should Never Say To An Emotional Woman - The Frisky:

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The Soapbox: What It Means To Be A Gentleman - The Frisky

Interesting read ... I'd have to say that I like to be treated like a lady by a gentleman.

The Soapbox: What It Means To Be A Gentleman - The Frisky:

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Baxter Boo

I have the cutest puppy dog in the world.  He's incredibly sweet and so smart! He makes me heart smile.  He's very loyal, and I'm convinced my aunt wants to steal him.

When we were talking on the phone yesterday, she mentioned that she's going to start driving to Indy on Saturdays so she can have Bax for the weekend. I think it's so cute that she loves him so much. My uncles has been bugging her ... asking her when I'll be visiting home again.  When she asked why, he said he misses Baxter.

I think he's a lucky guy to have us in his life. More importantly, I think we're lucky to have him.  He came into my life at the perfect moment. A time when I was very vulnerable!

This is for you Baxter-boo! Thanks for being such a good puppy dog!

I love you!

A grandfather is someone with silver in his hair and gold in his heart

A little over a week ago, I lost my grandfather.  He was 80 years old ... not horribly old, but old enough to have lived a long productive life.  He was a father of six . . . five girls and one boy . . . and a grandfather to eighteen.

He wasn't a perfect man, but who is? He certainly made mistakes in his life, but the important thing is that he learned from those mistakes. I know that he loved his family and was a caring man, but more often than not the strong silent type. I don't remember him laughing very often, but when he did you know he meant it.  And his smile . . . it was contagious.

I think he often worried about all those around him. He even had the wrinkles to prove it.  I think he worried the most about my grandmother, who I am often worrying about myself.  She's had her bouts with health care system and has been hospitalized at least twice that I can think of.  He took care of her even amidst his own illness . . . being the sicker of the two.  Now that he's gone, she's a wreck.  She hasn't been taking her meds and, as one would imagine, is heartbroken. My mom doesn't think that she's going to be alive for very much longer.  As we often hear, I think she may die of a broken heart.

As a young child I remember sitting in his lap feeling the warmth of his love.  As kids, my cousin and I love him so much that we stole his cigarettes and threw them out when he wasn't looking.  I don't think he was very happy about that.  I guess that even as kids, we knew that would end up being his demise.  He ended up smoking until the day he died.

February 2008

 Vovô, sinto muita saldades. Não passa um dia que eu não penso em você. Você é otimo homem, e me perdoe por não pude vê-lo outra vez. Por favor vigie todos nós durante desta epoca de tristeza. Te amo muito. Com. Todo. O. Meu. Coração.

Time, space, logistics are all just circumstantial in the Ex Universe

I often wonder how I would react if I ever saw my ex's.  Like the author of this article, I think I would feel compelled to punch, shout obscenities, or kick my "bad" ex where no guy wants to be kicked just because he hurt me so bad.  Or I might run, hide, and cry like she did. I don't know nor do I think I'll ever find out . . .  Simply due to the logistics of it all. Boy, does that  make me happy! Last week marked our one year since our break up.  It was a little rough on me, but, in the end, having dated him and gone through the break up the way that it happened, it has made me a much better better person.  I sure learned a lot about life and love . . . people in general.

It's just weird how we can love someone so much, then hate them so much.  I hope that I can get to a point where I don't completely hate my ex. I feel like he used me, and the one thing he promised he would never to do me, he did.  The pain has definitely eased over the past year, and I don't get upset when I think about him.  I, mainly, just hold anger towards him.  I'm sure I'll eventually forgive.

Anyway, the author also speaks of another ex, whom she met up to catch up on life.  I often think about my college boyfriend, and what meeting up with him would entail.  We've casually messaged and emailed back and forth over the past year or two.  I feel like I got a lot of closure through one of our last interactions.  He would be someone who I would want to run in to. I think he's a great person, and I, truly, wish all the happiness in the world.


Girl Talk: Assorted Notes On The Dreaded Ex Run-In - The Frisky:

"It’s funny how you can love someone, then hate them, then be furious with them, long for them, mistake them for every stranger on the street, obsess over scenarios of running into them, and never have it happen until the exact moment that it does. And it’s fine.
When a relationship dies, it leaves cosmic matter behind that keeps on existing and evolving in some hidden universe somewhere. Every once in a while, you’re reminded of its existence for a moment, and then poof! Back into the ether! Time, space, logistics are all just circumstantial in the Ex Universe."

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Hide Away

I am obsessed with Hide Away by Ben Rector. I think I've listened to it on repeat for the past couple hours . . . .

Hide Away 

I got a mind full of questions 

that just won’t let me be.

I am weary from the restless heart inside of me.

I never cared about believing 

until I see I’ve lost my way 

and then my troubles all around me,

 and all that I can say 

see me through another day 

though the devil’s calling.

I need a place to hide away 

from the storm. 

When the water’s rising, 

when the sun don’t shine, 

I need a place to hide away 

and some peace tonight.

Found out life was complicated, 

all gray and black and white. 

Sometimes I want to follow Jesus, 

but sometimes he’s hard to find. 

I never cared about believing 

until I see I’ve lost my way 

and then my troubles all around me 

and all that I can say, 

you see me through another day 

cause the devil’s calling.

I need a place to hide away 

from the storm. 

When the waters rising, 

when the sun don’t shine, 

I need a place to hide away 

and some peace tonight.

When the waters rise around me, 

when my worry is all I see, 

oh yea,

 I call your name 

and you came and found me. 

Through the darkness I can see 

ohh 

I can see 

ohh 

won’t you lead me through another day 

cause the devils calling.

I need a place to hide away 

from the storm. 

When the waters rising, 

when the sun don’t shine, 

I need a place to hide away 

and some peace tonight. 

I need a place to hide away 

could you bring me some peace tonight.

The kindness of strangers

This story reminds me that I was in this situation not that long ago ...

Good Samaritan killed in crash along I-465 - 13 WTHR:
This is how the man who died is remembered.  Sounds like the was a great GREAT man.
"I am honored and consider myself fortunate to have known the man who was killed in this accident. Always smiling and uplifting, he was a gentle man with a kind soul and a huge heart who would go out of his way to help anyone, as everyone can now see. I find solace in knowing that he is given honor in death because he was a man of honor. I will never forget the day I met him, my first day on the job, and it's hard to accept that his smiling face will no longer greet me every work day. I will also never forget the kindness and respect he showed not only to me, but to everyone he met. He is loved and deeply missed by many. We love and miss you, D; you will always remain in our hearts, thoughts, and prayers. My heart aches for your family, especially your fiance, daughter, and brother."

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Not too long ago, I was stranded at the side of the road during rush hour.  It was a really beautiful day and I was on my way back from Columbus after spending most of the week there between summer and fall semester. I had been speeding quite a bit to make it to a concert on time.   I was 4 or53 miles away from my exit when the tire pressure light came on. I thought that perhaps one of the tires was low on air and planned on checking that out as soon as I got home.  Then, not even a few minutes later, I heard the tire blowing out.  So, I pulled over to the shoulder as soon as I could.

I got out of the car and assessed the situation. I attempted to put the spare on, but there was no way for me to get the lug nuts off. I was stuck.  So, I called my uncle and asked him for help.  He was coming from Columbus, so it would be at least an hour before he would be able to help me.  So I went into the car and was perusing the interwebs on my phone waiting for him to get there.

I had only waited for about 10 or 15 before there was a knock on my window.  Some guy stopped to put my flat on for me.  I wanted to send him a gift card or something for stopping to help me out. But he wouldn't let me do so.  I don't even know his name, but I am very thankful that he took time out of his day to help me out.  All he said to me was, "I have a daughter who's about your age. If she ever finds herself in your situation, I would hope someone would do the same for her."

So, today is great day for to remember what he did for me.  Things could have turned out much differently than they did.  I got my flat during rush hour traffic and there were cars zooming by the whole time I was stranded.  I'm thankful that nothing more serious happened to us.

Why is there, still, so much hate?

Why is there, still, so much hate? This makes me so sad.

Bullied Teen, Who Once Made An "It Gets Better" Video, Commits Suicide | The Frisky:

"Heartbreaking news: a teen who once made a video for the “It Gets Better” Project committed suicide yesterday after dealing with ongoing harassment because of his sexual orientation. Jamey Rodemeyer, 14, of Buffalo, NY, had been questioning his sexuality for some time and recently blogged: “I always say how bullied I am, but no one listens. What do I have to do so people will listen to me?” Apparently, Jamey’s family was aware of the harassment he faced from classmates and were working with Williamsville North High School officials as best they could to help him . . . Jamey is the second Williamsville North High School student to kill himself this year, but school officials said that they’ve done all they could and while they offer counseling to students, they are not a “mental health facility.”"
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Hey life,

You can slow down at any moment. I would really appreciate that. Thanks a bunch!

Sincerely,
Me

That puncture wound that's healed over as a scab ...

Girl Talk: On Carpetbombing A Relationship | The Frisky:

"But if Caitlin is any indication, it is not pleasant to be the carpetbomber, either. That doesn’t excuse his behavior, or hers, but it explains a little bit why people do the things they do. She isn’t shrugging; she actually feels extremely guilty. It’s been years since her own breakup and she still feels terrible about what she did. I only hope her ex-boyfriend is at the same place that I hope to be someday: that he looks back on that time of his life, on that puncture wound that’s healed over as a scab, and he just shrugs."

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Still one of my favorites . . . Dreaming with a Broken Heart by John Mayer http://bit.ly/bZO8xW

You spin my head right round

I've been having trouble with this post . . . it's been in draft mode for a couple weeks now, and I can't seem to find the words to pull my thoughts together. I'm going to try to pound it out.

Over the past few weeks, things have really slow down for me. I was running on adrenaline all summer and now that things are slower, I'm having a hard time getting back into it.  I haven't done any school work, even though I've had tons of time to do so.  Instead, I'm procrastinating ... like usual.  This stresses me out.

Life is taking over and has been constantly on my mind.  At times it feels as if it is spinning out of control.  The moment I start planning for the future with various expectations of what I want is the moment we are reminded that life doesn't work that way. I have been reminded of that at various different instances in my life.  The biggest one that comes to mind is when I lost my job last year.  At that moment I was looking for another job and possibly considering a total career change.  I sensed that my time there was almost over. Anyway, the day before I was let go, I had applied to nursing school kind of on a whim.  I had considered it before, but never seriously.  So I took that as a sign that I was headed in the right direction.  So, even though I had never seriously considered nursing, I was kind of pushed into that direction.  I'm pretty sure that if I had not lost my job, I never would have stopped working to go back to school. At that  moment in my life, I was still kinda-sorta-maybe hoping the med school thing would happen. But like I said, whenever I try to make plans, I'm reminded that there are other things that I should be doing with my life.

I feel like things are always out of our control, but we still get to make our own decisions.  I know, I know ... they're opposites.  I guess that what I'm trying to say is that I do get to make my own decisions and what I think is right. But if those things that I decide on aren't "right," I'm brought back towards the right direction. I think in life I just have to trust.  Trust that things will work out. Trust that the experiences I have . . . whether positive or negative . . . are for the best and will lead me into the right direction.

"Whatever you want, darling."

Guy Talk: Learning To Be A Husband, Not A Son | The Frisky:

"When I lived with wives and girlfriends past, I’d quickly cede control over our living arrangements. What went where, and what got done when were decisions I wanted my partner to make. I thought I was being accommodating, telling myself and her “You know, honey, you care more about this (the color of the sheets, what kind of plants to have outside, what we have for dinner) than I do; why don’t you decide?” And my wife or girlfriend would make a decision, and whether I liked the decision or not, I didn’t have much to say about it either way. When pressed for my opinion, my favorite response was “Whatever you want, darling.” Of course, I liked having everything done for me. My wife or girlfriend maintained the relationship, kept things running, and in the cases where we lived together, made the major decisions about the house. I said loving things, made money, bought flowers occasionally, and did my best to be faithful. That, I figured, was my part."

Interesting article.  How can couples move from this into an "adult" relationship.  I never realized that this was one of the problems in my previous relationship, but through these outside eyes, I can see one of the flaws from the past.

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100 YEARS / STYLE / EAST LONDON

Cool :)

Pure Nourishment

Pure Nourishment: "Hayley Darby founded Pure Nourishment, nutritional therapy practice in 2007. PURE NOURISHMENT is devoted to empowering people to reach their full potential through improving nutritional status and feeding the soul...xx"

I recently found this page on FB, and I really like it. It gives me much encouragement when things don't feel right. It's always a pick me up.

Here are my favorites from the past day or so ...

Each one speaks to me for different reason.

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Spread your wings and fly

Last week I met some new people. All super nice and really cool.  One of them is a girl who just recently moved to Indy to be closer to her boyfriend . . . well--now ex-boyfriend.  She's a really sweet girl. Young. Brave. Outgoing.

As we chatted and got to know each other, I found out that she was working with inner-city, underprivileged kids in D.C. for a non-profit organization. She was out there for two year and got a lot of really good life experience.  While out there she met a guy, who had recently gotten out of a relationship, and started dating him.  He, then, moved to Indy for a job, so for awhile, they had a long distance relationship.  She would fly out here every other week or so, and he would make his way out to D.C.

So about 4 weeks ago after 8 months of dating, she moved to Indy after finding a job here to be closer to him.  Three weeks after settling down, he broke up with her because he needed time to think.  She knew that he had been talking to his ex but wasn't worried about it.  So when I met her last week, it had been about 5 or 6 days since he had talked to her.  So she had no idea what was going on or where she stood in his life. She was hoping that things were going to turn around and he would welcome her back into his life.

So, when we grabbed dinner last Friday, she told me he had finally "talked" to her.  While g-chatting, he divulged that he had only been using her and that he wants to marry his ex. Basically just kicked her to the curb.

As she told me her story she still had a smile on her face and seemed happy with life.  Of course she is sad and is dealing with the break-up, but she is still optimistic about life.  Because she had moved out here to be with him, she's decided to get out and make Indy her own.  She's making new friends and moving on with her life.

So while her story makes me sad, and my heart hurts for her, I take comfort in her story.  Knowing that there are other people who are going/have gone through similar (in this case worst) circumstances makes the world feel just a little bit smaller.  It helps us to see each other as people instead of individuals going through life.  It helps you to see that number one, you are not alone in your pain and hurt; and number two you are not alone in your suffering.

Despite the fact that she is younger than me, I think she has a lot to teach me.  She moved to D.C. from the Midwest after college to a brand new city.  She then did it again to be closer to her boyfriend, who she is not  dating anymore. To me this takes a lot of courage! I think she's an incredibly brave. In my life, I have always "needed" someone there with me when trying out new things.  I am going to take a page from her book and be brave.  She gives me more inspiration and determination to eventually become a travel nurse.  While I think it would be cool to get to live at different places around the country for short periods of time, the idea frightens me as well.  I'm not very good at being alone and not knowing many people around me.  But she gives me hope and inspiration to do so.  She gives me courage to fly and pursue those interests in which I don't know that I "can" do.   I hope to get to know her better and, most definitely, become better friends.

Anyway ...

Her situation makes me think of one of my favorite Sara Bareilles song; I know that with time, she'll feel strong and be on her own.

"Bluebird" 

Word came through in a letter,
One of us changing our minds.
You won't need to guess who
Since I usually do not send letters to me
That are mine

I told him I saw this coming,
That I'd practically packed up my things.
I was glad at the time that I said I was fine
But all honesty knows, I wasn't ready, no

And so here we go bluebird,
Back to the sky on your own.
Oh, let him go bluebird,
Ready to fly,
You and I,
Here we go.
Here we go.

This pair of wings worn and rusted,
From too many years by my side.
They can carry me, swear to be,
Sturdy and strong but see,
Turning them on still means goodbye.

And so here we go bluebird,
Gather your strength and rise up.
Oh, let him go bluebird
Oh, let him go bluebird
Oh, let him go bluebird

Ready to fly,
You and I,
Here we go.
Here we go.
Here we go...

60 min
Almost 5 miles
600 calories burned

Go me

Love is friendship caught on fire

Girl Talk: I Fell In Love With My Best Friend | The Frisky:

"Two days later, I showed up at his apartment with a homemade pumpkin pie I made him for his birthday. When he leaned over to kiss me for the first time, I almost started laughing. This was Ethan, the man I had gotten to know so well over the past eight months, my best friend. With Josh I used to feel nervous and self-conscious. I’d hold in my stomach and make sure I was always wearing makeup, even in the morning. With Ethan, I didn’t have to fake anything. I remembered the expression, “love is friendship caught on fire.” That’s what had happened, we caught on fire."

I think that's what love is supposed to feel like. It's supposed to feel comfortable and honest. I think it's supposed to feel like you can truly be who you are without any hesitation. I think more often than not, we try to be the perfect fit for someone else that we loose ourselves along the way. By loosing ourselves, we can't ever be truly happy. So, by forming a deep friendship, we can be happy in more ways than one. We can be ourselves while sharing our lives with that special someone.

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I am grateful that our time together made me so sure that being who I am is right.

Girl Talk: Dating A Man With Autism Taught Me To Be Myself | The Frisky:

"In some ways, even though they feel like a blur, I think I learned more about myself in those three months with Paul than I did in all my years of dating. I learned that the freedom to be completely myself, flaws and all, is something I absolutely need in a relationship. Being with Paul for that brief period, feeling so accepted for who I was, at my most intense and open, confirmed that for me. So even though I have moments of anger over how quickly Paul used that openness against me and declared it somehow wrong, I am grateful that our time together made me so sure that being who I am is right."

The Elongated Date

Dating Fact: At A Certain Point, A Long First Date Actually Becomes A Second Date

This is an interesting concept. I like it. A first date can become a 2nd ... 3rd ... and so forth ... date even though they're all in the same sitting.

By this definition, I have been on many elongated dates ... especially in my previous relationships. In those relationships, the guys did not live in the same city as I, and thus, making elongated dates more likely. We would often spend entire weekends together before we were "official." Also, elongated dates can be really fun. If you're having a great time with someone, why cut it short because it's only the first date? Seems silly to me. The lines can, and often do, get murky with these long dates. These long dates can make you feel like you're moving too fast; but by spending all this time together, you're naturally connecting in a deeper level than just going out for coffee for an hour.  So, I like this idea. I like it that just because you've only have technically have only had one date doesn't mean that you're only on date number one; you could easily be on date number 3 or 4 after your outing together. 

Hot mess

Girl Talk: Everyone Saw Me Cry

I've been there. I've cried. In.Public. Embarrasing. Foolish. But, ultimately, absolutely worth it. Crying to me therapeutic. It makes me feel better.  There's something about crying that just allows me to let it all go.  

Ultimately, crying can serve many purposes. Joy. Happiness. Sadness. Anger. Pain. It's freeing if you allow yourself to just let go.

How's life going?

How could one simple question cause so much anxiety, pain, and even a little anger?

I emailed my ex yesterday to ask for a bicycle rack that we had bought together. If he wasn't using it, I would like to have it because I want to get a new bike and be able to take it places.  Simple question, right?  Good news is that I can have it, so I don't have to buy a new one. Yay! But he ended the email with, "How's life going?"

I emailed him before going to bed last night and completely forgot about until I checked my email right before lunch today. As soon as I saw his name in my inbox, my palms got sweaty, and my heart started beating super fast.  First of all, it was really hard for me to even email him at all because we have not spoken since I broke up with him. Anytime I've needed anything from him or something of mine that he had, I always spoke with his mom; she always relayed the message for me.

Second, why does he really care? Why the sudden concern? Yes, we dated and for a while at that.  But ... he completely and totally broke my heart.  I was destroyed and betrayed. He did the one thing he promised me he would never do.  Plus, I tried to break up with him; he begged to get back together, and I took him back.  He, then, completely broke my heart by cheating on me about a month after that. He didn't care enough about me at that point to have the decency to break up with me before going out with that girl. Plus, why couldn't he have let me go when we first broke up? Why put me through the pain of being cheated on  when he had been (sorta) through the same thing?

Lastly, I wanted to write him back and be really nasty. I wanted to say, "Thanks, much better now that you're out of my life." That wouldn't have been a lie, though.  Instead, I said "Life is great. Thanks." I have to admit that I'm surprised at the fact that I had these emotions running through me. I'm a little surprised that I got such a big reaction out that "How's life going?"

Even though the break up caused A LOT of pain and hurt, I'm thankful that I went through that. Because of the experiences I had with David, I am now a much stronger person. I learned a lot about myself and grew into, what I think, the person I'm supposed to be.  I can now stand up for what I believe in without compromising my morals.  I have a lot more self esteem and now believe in myself.  I believe that I deserve good things and don't have to settle.  Lastly, even though I like being in a relationship and love the companionship that comes out of it, I don't have to be in one to be happy.  The old me would have settled for the first guy that showed interest. Instead, I've gone out on a lot of dates over the past 6-7 months and have--attempted--to figure out what's important to me in a relationship.  So, for that, I'm grateful that I went through what I did. Lastly, I feel like I'm ready to date for the right reasons.

"Do people still say bang?"

Today's post will more than likely be short, but I feel like I have something to say . . .  I do a lot of my thinking in the car. Tonight was the perfect night to do that.  As I drove down from the northside, a small sliver of the moon attempted to light up the night skies.  It looked beautiful.  It's amazing to me how a small and simple item can be so magnificent!


Anyway, I watched Crazy, Stupid, Love again tonight.  I still feel the same way that I did about soul mates, but I think that we all have many different soul mates instead of just having one. We have many different people who can be the perfect fit for us.  But . . . Something new that I'm taking away from watching it a second time is that I very much feel like I will find my perfect match one day.  It's been a tough road for me for the past year or year and half, but I'm in a really good place in my life now.  I have faith.  I've been really impatient in these regards recently.  I've gone on a lot of dates over the past 6 months, and lets just say that many were not close to being anywhere near perfect. But I can laugh at these experiences and have certainly learned from them.  So I just need to step back and just let it be. The best thing that I can do is to be the best person that I can be and give back to the universe in any way possible. Good things will happen to me if I just wait.

This leads me to something that I truly believe in ... KARMA. All of our actions have consequences in one way or another. In simple words, you get what you give.  If you treat others with respect, you'll get respect back. If you're the best person that you know how to be, then you'll get that back into your life.   Also, I think that you get what you put out . . . If you're positive, then that's what you attract. You'll bring positivity back into your life. Honestly, who wouldn't want that?

Adele has been great to me.  I've been listening to her new album on repeat ever since it came out.  There are many songs that speak to me.  It's as if she was inside of my head when she wrote these lyrics (Sara Bareilles too!!).  Anyway, on my drive down while admiring the moon "Rolling in the Deep" came on my ipod.  Every time the song comes on, I turn the radio WAY WAY up and just belt out the song. Every time I do, I feel a little negativity leaving my mind.  As many times that I have heard and belted out the song, I always seem to notice something different about it.  This really stood out to me tonight . . .

"Throw your soul through every open door/ Count your blessings to find what you look for/ Turn my sorrow into treasured gold/ You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow" Adele

This goes right along with the whole karma deal . . . I think she's taking about having faith and being thankful for what you have and who you are.  There are lessons to be learned, even in those situations that just SUCK! Eventually, those who wronged you will get theirs. So, just trust in the universe and yourself, and everything will work out.

Crazy.Stupid.Love.

I watched Crazy, Stupid, Love yesterday. The movie was awesome! It's my new favorite movie. There were unexpected twists. It made me laugh. It made me cry. Most of all it gave me a lot to think about.

The premise of the movie revolves around find one's one and only true soul mate. This is confusing to me. Can this be? Could it really be true? In the movie, the main characters each have one true soul mate whom they fall in/out of love.  This is troublesome to me. What are the chances that people actually find their one true love. 

I think that people have many individuals who can and do fulfill different purposes in their lives.  This includes significant others. I think people have many different options for love, and many individuals who are good fits for them. Otherwise, there would either be a lot more people who are single or a bunch of married people are living a lie. 

This idea of one soul mate also brings up fears for myself.  What if I never find my one true love? or what if I have, but I've let it go and didn't fight for it? I would drive myself crazy by worrying about the what ifs. So, I won't. I need to have faith that I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be in my life.  I believe that everything happens for a reason, and that there is a lesson to be learned.

So . . .  LOVE . . . it is crazy and can certainly be stupid at times.

9 Things I Dread About Dating

9 Things I Dread About Dating

Dating.is.hard.

Period.

Let it be me . . .

When things don't feel quite right and I'm feeling down, it is very easy to be negative. The past 36 hours have been specially rough.  Being that I'm a procrastinator and school has me absolutely burnt out, I didn't start studying for today's exam until 530 yesterday. So, I pulled, yet again, another all nighter this summer. Between the lack of sleep and the nervousness of not knowing what I got on the exam, I've been stuck in a funk today.

So, instead of complaining and whinnying about it all, I'm going to turn this around and talk about some things I'm thankful for.

First of I have to say that I have the best family and friends.  As time goes by and I get older, I'm amazed at how many wonderful people have come into my life. . .  Some for a short amount of time and others that I know will be around and in my heart for a lifetime.  Each and and every person has taught me something about anything--life, friendship, love, heartache, hurt and pain, joy, and ultimately about myself--regardless all are valuable lessons.  I feel so thankful for my family and the support they've provided.  My aunt is someone that I hold very close to my heart.  She is an amazing person and someone that I only hope to be half as good as.  Also, I would not be where I am today if it weren't for the people I'm lucky to call my friends.  Through the ups and downs of my life, they have been there for me . . . NO MATTER WHAT.  So to them, I say THANK YOU. You have have helped shaped me into who I am today.

Next, as most of you know, I have to mention my puppy dog.  I have said this before, and I will say this again . . . Baxter helped save my life. He came into my life right before the lowest of the lows of my life.  I'm not sure I would have survived without him. It's astonishing the sort of companionship you can get from a pet. AND as silly as this sounds, he helps me feel like I have some sort of purpose in life.

Ray has summed up what these individuals have done for me. So, in return, when it's a friend that you need, let it be me. I truly feel lucky to have you all in my life.

Let it be me - Ray Lamontagne

There comes a time
A time in everyone's life
When nothing seems to go their way
When nothing seems to turn out right
There may come a time
You just can't seem to find your place
For every door you open
Seems like you get two slammed in your face
That's when you need someone
Someone that you can call
When all your faith is gone
It feels like you can't go on
Let it be me
Let it be me
If it's a friend you need
Let it be me
Let it be me
Feels like you always coming up last
Pockets full of nothing
Ain't got no cash
Don't matter where you turn
You ain't got no place to stand
You reach out for something and they slap your hand
Just how it feels to be all alone
You feel like you'd give anything
For just a little place you can call your own
That's when you need someone
Someone that you can call
When all your faith is gone
It feels like you can't go on
Let it be me
Let it be me
If it's a friend you need
Let it be me
Let it be me
Let it be me
Let it be me
If it's a friend you need
Let it be me
Let it be me
Let it be me

I remember all too well

I miss my little puppy boy

Puppy boy Baxter-Boo is in Columbus with Grandma and Grandpa.  I'm pulling an all-nighter tonight, and I feel bad leaving him crated all night then all day while I'm at school. So he gets to spend quality time with Grandma and Grandpa.

I came home from clinical on Thursday to find an awesome mess in my bedroom!  Puppy boy had a GOOD time while I was gone.  He tore up a couple of plastic bags-which were not on the floor by the way-and drug my trash can from the bathroom to the bedroom. Silly puppy dog! 

Surprise Momma!!! Bax had a fun day.

The weekend is coming to an end, and I need to start studying for tomorrow's exam.  I have no motivation to study. I hope I pass.  The weekend was great! Lots of fun.

I had my first experience at the drive in yesterday. It was super fun!  There were lots of interesting people all around.